From then, to now.

I don't want you to see me like this.
I'm not the person you once knew.
I'm not the person you spent that weekend with in August.

I know i need your help.
I know i need you both to find my sanity again.
But i don't know if i'm ready.

Honestly, i can't wait to see you.
I can't wait to hug both of you, and spend time with you.
But i don't know if you should see me like this.

I'm worn down and tired.
I'm a lot different than i was the last time i saw you both.

The truth is--
i'm embarassed by my state.
I want to get better.
I want to see the sun again,
but i don't know if want that now.



I'm just afraid you'll see me, and forget who i used to be.

I still want you to come.
I still want to spend time with you and show you what it's like here.

I guess i'm just afraid that i'm stuck like this.
So please, when you come here, unstick me.

I honestly don't miss this night at all.
I'm ready to see bigger and better things with you.
And soon, i think i'll be ready for you to help me move on.