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I didn't think you could fuck me up so badly.

I hope you hurt beyond belief after what you did to me.
But the fucked up part is, i know you don't.
You still get pleasure out of fucking with my head, and you love to show it to the world.
I can honestly say that no one has hurt me as much as you,
no one scares me as much as you,
no one makes me as mad as you,
and no one has broken my trust like you.

I wish so badly i could say something,
but the selfish bit inside of me is just afraid that if i do,
i'll get hurt again.

I thought i was fine,
i thought i'd finally started to put it behind me,
until you fucked with my head again.
Public humiliation isn't pretty, and nor are the other terrible things you did to me,
and every single part of me wishes i had the guts to make you realize that.

You're a sick, sick person.
And it makes me sick to see that somehow, people still get wrapped up in your little game.
I've been hurt before,
but not like this.
I've never had my trust broken like this.
I've never had my emotions toyed with like this.
I don't know where you see the fun in this,
but i hope it haunts you in your sleep,
i hope it makes you sick like it makes me sick,
i hope it bothers you every second of everyday,
and i hope you regret it with every ounce of your being.
Because you
are a
bad,
bad,
bad
person.

I'm honestly ready to say that
you're the one who got me lost in the first place.
You're the one who pushed me off the edge,
and the one who left me afraid..
It's all your fucking fault
and it scares me that it's taken me this long to realize it.

I'm not usually one to hold grudges,
i'm not usually one to hate people,
or wish people to misery..
but i hope you lead a sad and sorry life,
because that's the fate you drove me to,
and i feel the pain of it every second of every minute
of every fucking day.

You deserve nothing short of the worst.



(I wish i could say i was ready to let go.. but i think this is only the beginning)